Business ProfileforThe Right Step Hill Country

--It started off great, FINALLY had opened up and felt ACCEPTED by people around me. Then, because a person can't get help until they are honest and open, I decided to tell my "Counselor" my inner feeling of self hate and some past suicide issues (16 YEAR PRIOR). The next day they forced me to either change programs into a more "psychiatric" close watch program or leave.--I felt violated. My trust was abused. I begged them to reconsider and to take into consideration my progress before moving me.--They were a brick wall. THEY knew what was best for me. "We are doing this for you". "This is best for you"... But I have social problems. The fact that I walked into that facility and made acquaintances was significant for me. I KNOW ME way better than they can possibly know me. It was hard enough the first time to enter a program, I didn't have it in me to do it again SO SOON.--What happened to privacy with a psychological team member? This experience has reinforced my inner self talk that I don't fit in. That I'm too bad to be around people. That everybody hates me. That you should NEVER tell anyone how you REALLY feel inside. Those dark secrets that are bad and should not be said...--What's even worse than the emotional stuff is that I have high blood pressure and have had strokes RECENTLY... I have diabetes with real high blood sugar and been HOSPITALIZED 4 times in past 2 months from it... I have asthma and carry an inhaler...AND THEY DID NOT check my blood pressure or give me meds, check my blood sugar or give me insulin, make sure I had my inhaler OR EVEN OFFER ME A WATER... prior to letting me out the gate to walk over 100 miles home. The ONLY ride they offered was to the other suggested program.--I did not break any rules. I was VERY polite to everyone. I kept calm through all this. Even other staff and a number of the patients talked to admin staff and told them to let me stay. I'm not sure what all they said but it was reported back to me that a bunch of people were on my side. For the time I was there I was very supportive to everyone.--It's not likely I'll seek a treatment program again. My trust was thoroughly trashed. I simply said what I FEEL inside... in private to my so called "Counselor". It's been 16 years since I was actually doing self harm.